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Thursday, April 13, 2017


Sometimes God sends angels to walk amongst our midst. Freida was one of those angels. 

I remember that terrible time in South Korea when I was temporarily left out of the hostel. With nowhere to stay and no one to turn to, I basically just gathered up my courage and asked a total stranger in the females dorm's lift, whether she could take me in for a few nights. That kindly, generous, motherly soul was Freida. I practically cried tears to God for sending me an angel to help me. Those nights, I slept peacefully on the mattress in her room, knowing I was in a safe place. We spent some time talking, about her family in Africa, about her kids and how lucky she was to get a scholarship to study overseas so that her family would have a better future when she got back home.

I seldom ever saw her again after I got my own dorm room. Maybe sometimes in the lifts, maybe in the school corridors, maybe at church. And after that she left, back to Africa, and I, back to Malaysia. Our paths never crossed again. 

Today I woke up to some bad news in my Facebook newsfeed. I read that she had passed on on Monday. But, like one of her friends wrote on her Timeline, we take comfort in the fact that she had known the Lord and is now together with our Heavenly Father. 

Thursday, April 06, 2017

Big Announcement

Today was the day they made the Big Announcement. 

And when I got into the car ready to leave for lunch, and turned the radio on, these two songs were played:-

Boyz II Men "End of the Road" 
Thomas Rhett "Die A Happy Man"

Well, the first song clearly indicates our position, while the second song was very popular on the radio during my biz trip to the US at that time. Coincidence, much?

Anyway, I'm glad that I got some package that fell out from the sky. I feel like it's God's funny way of saying "take it and shut up". And who knows this may be a blessing in disguise. Also, I am actually quite disappointed in something but I believe that God will comfort and lead the way for me, in His own time. 

Thursday, March 30, 2017

Fall in love with piano again

Since I have some spare time on my hands now, and my mind is free from work, I have the chance to pick up on my lovely piano again.

Well, the word "again" is actually not so correct since I never actually learnt piano. I had an electone organ background and took music classes throughout my schooling years. Then I stopped, abruptly, before SPM and never touched it again. :-P (The organ at home is still in good condition and is used regularly by mom..)

Even though I hated organ back then, I thank my parents for painstakingly putting me through music school. So at least now I have the basic knowledge of sightreading and rhythm. That means I am able to indulge now in learning piano pieces that I like in my own pace without yet needing to take piano classes. (No piano exams! Woohoo!) 

My first few pieces that I am trying to learn are:- 
-Beethoven "Fur Elise"
-Yiruma "Kiss The Rain"
-Hillsong "Shout To The Lord"
-Bach "Prelude to the Well-Tempered
-Richard Clayderman "Mariage D'Amour"

It's a joy being able to spend time on my piano every night after my child and hubby are asleep. Hopefully I'm not "hangat-hangat tahi ayam".  🎹 

Thursday, March 23, 2017

March Madness

It's barely the third week of March and I've already gone into a shopping frenzy.. Haha no thanks to the countless Baby Fair, Home Decor Fair, Lazada 5th Anniversary Sale... 

Items we've bought so far:-
- Child car seat - RM200+
- Ceramic frying pan - RM160
- Panasonic slow juicer - RM700+
- Makeup dresser - RM700+ 
- Phillips electric pressure cooker - RM295
- Photobooks x4 - RM100
- And here comes THE SPLURGE:- Yamaha DGX-660 Digital Piano - RM4500

I can't bear to look at my credit card bill next month. :-P 

Well, on the bright side it's all in anticipation of some extra $$$ coming in the next month. And I do hope that all my mom's effort and money putting me through organ school when I was young will not go to waste... At least I have some interest in playing the piano again after so many years... 

Tuesday, March 21, 2017

A very flustery March

March 2017 is a month filled with many new and dramatic changes - Hayley starting preschool, me facing the prospect of losing my job, and hubby going through changes at his workplace. 

It's been more than a week since Hayley started preschool and she still whimpers every morning, and then those whimpers turn into loud cries whenever we hand her over to the teacher at the preschool. We're still not sure of the reason why she's still crying. Is it due to stress of being in a new place? Is it because she doesn't have friends? Is it because the teachers are too stern? Should we have waited till she was fully 3 instead of sending her at 2y7m? Only time will tell. 

Before she started preschool, we would try to "brainwash" her that school is good for her. She would reply with a defiant "school is sucky" and now, "school is bad for me". She would also tell me which teacher is good/bad and when the "baby" pushed her at school. And one morning, before I dropped her off at school, I tried to make myself sound understanding amid her tears. The conversation goes like this:- 

Me: Mama understands that you're sad. Mama is sad too.
H: You're not sad. You're happy. 

I seriously am amazed at her understanding of such complex emotions! 

On the bright side, she is suddenly able to complete singing her songs without any help. She also goes to sleep slightly earlier at night. The school certainly helped in toilet training and now she knows how to tell us when she needs to poopoo/weewee. Oh hopefully she will be able to adapt to preschool and have a happy life there. 

For hubby's case, there is no choice but to accept the change at his workplace. In fact, it could mean a good opportunity for him if he does well in the transition period. I hope I can play a more supportive role for him. 

And in my case, well, it is still too soon to divulge any details, but it's not wrong to say I got what I wished for, albeit a little too soon. Anyway, a co-worker shared this on Facebook and I think it's very true:- "A man plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps and makes them sure. ~Proverbs 16:9".

Keep praying for me! 

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

Hayley's Last Day at Nanny's House

Today was the last day of Hayley at her nanny's house. Tomorrow, she will start a new chapter in her young life - preschool. 

As I was packing her pink beetle bag for tomorrow, and looking through the photos that her nanny had sent me on Whatsapp, my eyes welled up with tears. I suddenly thought, how did my baby girl grow up so soon? It's like in the midst of all the chaotic background noises of parenting, our baby suddenly blossomed into a walking, talking toddler. Truthfully, I can't even recall the first day that we sent her to our nanny's house. Was it with a sense of trepidation or relief? Was she bawling or sleeping soundly when we carefully cradled her in our arms and handed her over? I honestly can't remember that moment now, can't even remember the clothes that she wore.

But today, at least I'll be able to remember this day in the future as I jot it down. When I reached our nanny's house to fetch her, she had just woken from her afternoon nap and was lying on the couch. In a bit of a sleepy daze, she walked slowly towards me with her big big eyes, those beautiful big eyes which had just woken from a long nap. She was happy to see me after a long day, same as the many days before this. And when I hugged her, she laid her beautiful head onto my shoulder like a little lamb to a shepherd. 

Today was the day she said goodbye to her few best friends at nanny's place. There was Seng Seng korkor, the one she claimed to be her "best friend". And there was Yannas, towering above her even though she is five months younger. Although she normally "complains" about Yannas, it seemed like they were the bestest of BFFs today. 

Soon, little girl, your life will be filled with more and more moments like this -- parting moments, and new exciting encounters. I wish that you will embrace each new experience with anticipation and eagerness, and be passionate about what life holds for you along the way. 

I give thanks to the Lord for creating this window for me to glance upon my child's life and what the Lord has in store for her.  All glory be to God, Amen.

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Goblin: The Lonely and Great God (도깨비 - 쓸쓸하고 찬란하神)

What have I been doing throughout CNY? Binge-watching the hugely popular Korean drama "Goblin: The Lonely and Great God (도깨비 - 쓸쓸하고 찬란하神)" of course! I absolutely had to watch it as there were so many good reviews going around about this drama.

Sure enough, I was hooked! From the crisp and refreshing cinematography, to the awesome actors and actresses and the hauntingly beautiful OST, I knew from the beginning of the first episode that I was doomed to chase it until the end.

I think the main reason that draws the ladies to fan-hype over this drama is the main character - the dokkaebi (도깨비). Who doesn't wish for a boyfriend who is almighty (almost), has super-powers, is charming, rich (can transform gold bars from thin air), owns a big mansion and a Maserati, opens doors to wonderful places, appears instantaneously whenever you summon him (by blowing out a candle), saves you from awful situations etc etc?? Also, not to mention that this all-powerful guy has only eyes for you, is so tender to you, doesn't mind that you're not pretty, always calls you pretty, and says that you're his first and last. Sure enough, it also helps that this dokkaebi is Gong Yoo and is not some ugly green goblin. 

One scene that especially spoke to my heart was when they were arguing over something petty, Gong Yoo turned away and turned back to pat her head and say something lovey-dovey to soothe his bride. 

The beautiful postcard-like cinematography also reminded me of my days in Korea. It is so realistic, the washed-out colors of the coast, rainy spring season, sakuras blooming at night, first snow, colorful bookstores, long walks along the coastal walkway etc. 

Spoilers ahead:-
I cried my heart out watching the last episode. Sure, I thought that episode 13 when the dokkaebi died should be the last and ending episode. But, when I watched episode 14 when the two lovers were apart for 9 years and then reunited, it felt even better than the previous episode. And during the last and final episode 16, it actually provides a premise for a happy ending that even though separated by death in this life, the dokkaebi and his bride would be able to live happily ever after in her second reincarnation, and her third, and her fourth; after which they could leave this world and move on into the afterlife together...

As the saying goes in the drama:-


On good days
On bad days
On days that are just right
Every day is good with you. 

Monday, February 13, 2017

Shopping day with Hayley

Hayley is 2y7m now. She has grown into a sensible and cute little girl. 

Last Saturday, Hubby wanted to go to Bukit Mertajam to fit a new AV system for his car. So on the way, he dropped us off at Design Village Batu Kawan for half an hour, he said... 

I first went to hunt for cheap clothes at Padini. She was a good little girl who stayed in her stroller, while looking chic with her sunglasses. Although she did drop her sunglasses at some point, luckily the guard at the store recovered it for us. 

After grabbing the cheap clothes from Padini, Mama was very hungry so we stopped for a bite at Wendy's. I sat her in a chair facing the store's glass window. She was such an amazingly good girl and had so many good observations of what was happening outside the store. As she can converse very well now, she asked me stuff like "What is that man doing?" And I replied her that the worker is watering plants and she understood perfectly. And when the children's train passed by the window she was so excited and said "choo choo!" in her loudest voice. 

Next we went to Cotton On but there was nothing much to buy. Onwards we went to Cotton On Kids which was perfect heaven for the both of us! The store was so bright and new and clean and there were hundreds of cute outfits to browse. The best thing was they not only sold clothes, but also toys and stationery and all sorts of fancy and whimsical accessories - fairy wings, magic LED wand, bear night lamp, unicorn coloring activity set, masks, bouncing ball, drums, you-name-it etc. We had a ball of a time in there. 

Luckily Cotton On Kids was already open, if not Hubby would have a bashing by the time he came to pick me up... 3 hours later. 

And now all I need is to go there a second time to shop for some shoes. :-P

Friday, January 13, 2017

Church Camp at Taiping

We had our company's annual year end shutdown; this time it was 11 days. I didn't plan to go for any overseas trip this time because I was having travel fatigue, haha! Yet, I didn't really enjoy myself fully during the shutdown because I was worried about some tasks that I was having difficulty to complete. 

Nevertheless, it was still a good break! We attended our first ever church camp as a family over Christmas. The Sunday School kids performed two song-and-dance numbers during the hotel's Christmas dinner. Despite it being Hayley's first time performing on stage, she really stole the show! I was half-expecting her to get stage-fright and refuse to get on stage, but she went ahead and finished the dance and even gave a cute little bow at the end! Papa and Mama were beaming with pride at the end. The buffet dinner was also delicious, they served roast turkey which I was not expecting. 

We spent 3d2n in Taiping for the church camp. It was good since we got to know other members of the church better. It was also fun during the outing, Hayley had a swell time riding the bus! Even though it rained heavily, we still enjoyed our little tour of Taiping visiting the cookie factory, coffee factory, museum, Lake Gardens, and the seafood dinner at Kuala Sepetang. 

I thank God for granting my wish. I had been so longing to join a church family camp ever since university. Always looking at people joining church camp and I didn't even have a church to call my own then. Thank God that hubby was very participating and supportive of me. I'm so truly blessed having Leonard and Hayley by my side! 

Monday, January 09, 2017

New Year's Resolutions

I think I have abandoned my blog for year 2016. But I will try to revive it! 

Here are my resolutions for the New Year:
1) Have a second baby.
2) Drop 5kg if (1) is not met.
3) Run 3x a week, swim 1x a week. 
4) Go to work earlier.
5) Toilet train Hayley and teach her to self-feed.
6) Think of a business to earn more money.
7) Update my blog at least once a week. 
8) Do devotion with Hayley at least twice a week.

I think one of my resolutions for year 2016 was to find a church and cell group and stick with it. Praise God, I have found the right church and cell group for my family and I attended the family camp in December. Will also start serving in Sunday School ministry this year onwards. Praise God for all that He has done and pray that I'll have perseverance to accomplish my New Year's Resolutions for 2017.