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Tuesday, April 05, 2011

Flowers & Me


Beautiful flowers are in full bloom again! Here are some of my pictures with the lovely spring flowers~

The plum blossom starts first. 
Then the big white magnolia tree in the center of the garden at the university front gate.
Then the small colorful crocuses on the ground. And the small yellow flower that looks like a button.
Then the gorgeous sexy pink and red camelias.
And the princess of the flowers, the cherry blossom.

BEAUTIFUL.

But most of the big trees are without leaves yet. So when I don't focus on the flowers and just take a ground level random picture, it still feels kinda wintry and barren. But when I focus on the small, beautiful things and group them all together, everything looks so beautiful. Just like life, from the outside. Nobody actually sees the real picture of how I am, my current circumstance. Everybody thinks I am so happy here. Because of the small pictures. I too, cheat myself into thinking that all is perfect and well here. I hope it really is. I hope I will feel better after my friends and family come visit me for the next two weeks.

I am always hyperthreading, my thoughts. So on the other hand I feel that if I try harder to focus on the beautiful things in life, I might just feel happy again and pull myself out of the glum, the barrenness, the ugly things that I am in. Everybody tells me to focus harder. But I can't do it. I think that I am two persons in one. I try to, though, everyday. Everyday I look out the window and tell myself to start anew. That the sun is shining, that it's a brand new day.

I think I look good in the collage above with my long, straight hair and long fringe. I look kinda smart and sweet at the same time especially in my leather jacket and when I pair it with a flowery short skirt or pastel lace dress. But I don't look like that anymore. Today I felt a tremendous urge to do a perm. I want to have romantic Korean curls in time for Spring. So I went to the hair shop and the woman kept on telling me, your hair is so bad, your hair is so terrible. I hope I'll look good tomorrow for the photoshoots when my friends come!

4 comments:

pik lay said...

beautiful, you and flower. You are really fairer now. Maybe is the magic of BB? haha

leonardlcy said...

hahah when the hairdresser said "your hair is so bad, so terrible", does it remind you of our wedding photographer? :)

josze said...

both u and flowers look greatttttttttt. u use BB ar? which brand? I hardly can find one that doesnt clog

Xweing said...

Josze: Thanks! My BB is Missha Signature Real Complete SPF25. But I find it too oily to use in Malaysia. Perhaps u could try the Nature Republic BB with the flower. Or Skin79, I heard it's most popular but I haven't had a chance to try that out yet. In Malaysia I prefer to use Biore UV Perfect Face Milk which turns into powdery feeling on your face!