Lilypie - First Birthday

Wednesday, February 28, 2007


I woke up this morning with a spring in my step, a smile on my face. But you took that all away with ur horrible comments.

Same as comments from the doctor, when you've gotten not one, but two devastatingly hurtful criticisms about your outlook in a day, and be reminded of repetitive condemnations that come again and again and again each time I go back home, you'll really start to doubt yourself, your taste, your values, and even your meaning in life. At least I did, today.

I know, I know, you didn't intend to be malicious. But enlighten me, how should I feel when I get attacked so unintentionally (you say!) when I, for one, has never, and ever tried to hurt you with the least harshness and cruelty.

I really hate insensitive remarks, especially from those people who just intend to bring you down and your day with it. "Oh, your shirt looks dreadful today!" "Oh my, what a fat hip you have!"... you get it, but I couldn't care less. Being the sensible, always-positive person that I am, I would attempt to shrug it off with a smile and just remind myself to cover up my flaws the next day.

But please don't criticise me about something that I'm unable to change... eg. my weight, my bodyshape, my hair, and my skincolour. I've been this shape for as long as I can remember, throughout my high school days when I used to play softball and I was at my fittest then. Fyi, my weight actually hasn't gained much since then. And I try to exercise and keep healthy and love my body, so please go pick on others your own size. And don't even start on my boobs. I didn't ask for them and yet God gave them to me, so go snicker at something else, perhaps at the footballs on the playing field? And stop talking about my skincolour, no I'm not Indian I've mentioned more times than once, I just can't help it if my pigmentation surfaces more easily than others. And my hair, oh my hair... now that's something I can do to change/cover up, sometimes, but it's also been like that since I was a baby... and just be thankful that I don't snicker back at you when your own hair is completely gone.

Like I said, I don't care about negative remarks from those who come from people I couldn't care less for. But for those whom I truly value as friends and family, sorry to say, I really can't take it anymore. Anymore of this and I swear I'll truly jump... and all you'll get to criticise afterwards is to my grave.

I don't feel like going there anymore.

I just wanna say, that I feel terribly sad today. But give me some constructive criticism, and I'll not only take it, I'll even be grateful to you. Thanks.

If I could...

drown out all the voices that I didn't wanna hear...
erase all the faces that I didn't wanna see...

Wouldn't that be sweet?

Monday, February 26, 2007

Human Thermometer

"Fever, sorethroat, slight cough and a running nose."
"Does your throat feel itchy or painful?"
"Painful?? Nope..."
"How's your cough? Any pain?"
"It's actually just a slight one. No pain."
"What's the colour of your phlegm?"
"Er... white??"
"How about your running nose?"
"Well come to think of it, it's not too bad... just a lot of... sniffles..."
"Your temperature is normal."
"Is it? Please check again. I do feel feverish."
"36.6 deg C. It's normal."
"Please check again."
"You're not having a fever."
"Check again!!!"

I guess when you've been to the doctor one too many times, and each time the doctor says you're not sick, that's the point where you begin to lose confidence in gauging your own wellbeing.

But really, is it me, or is it REALLY hot in here??

I mean, I gotta knowww my own anatomy right? If I were a caveman in those prehistoric days, I wouldn't be able to get a doctor, not to mention a plug-in-the-freaking-ear-thermometer to determine whether or not I'm having a fever.

And so I know myself. All these symptoms, leading and fueling a bigger cause. And aren't doctors the ones who are always campaigning that "prevention is better than cure"? So do give me some medicine to prevent the fever from coming, rather than me crawling on all four of my limbs to the clinic when I'm really, really sick... 4 days after.

Well, I guess saying phlegm in front of the doctor is nothing, but saying phlegm to a doctor who is also a prospective boyfriend over dinner does definately indeed, scare him away.

Sunday, February 25, 2007


终于从家乡回到工作的地方了... 为什么是新年快起而不是新年快乐呢?因为有条木瓜说:“新年快乐(快落,快落)不好听,所以要新年快起!”我觉得好师奶之说,所以特别记了一记...

新年真是对身体很不好的一个节日,在家里除了吃就是睡...当我取笑吃饱就睡的外公时,和我同属猪的他说:“猪年嘛,所以我们应该象猪一样,吃饱就睡...” -_-'''

每天大鱼大肉的我,已经拿很少饭了...可还是吃得很胀!除了三餐温饱以外,还有很多附属餐,如:妈妈做的各式各样饼干,肉丝春卷,虾饼,柑... 所以讲,不是单靠吃快餐就会超重的,吃家里餐也照样会变肥。

前几天和朋友聚会拍出的照片里我还是瓜子脸一个,怎知昨天友人就说我脸变圆了!!!新年裤也好像突然变窄了一些... 糟糕,今天开始一定要快速努力加紧减肥!

回到槟城真舒服,打扫完房间之后再到下面洗车,现在坐在电脑前面写部落,等待晚上去看人家拜天公... 好像有用不完的精力一样,难道是因为昨天半夜喝的那杯Old Town Hazelnut White Coffee 所致成?


这个新年,我第一次派利是(不是因为结婚了,是因为开始做工了要孝敬长辈和弟弟),第一次拿少别人很多利是(不知道为什么!!),追完首季的Grey's Anatomy,看那本B栋11楼怎么看也看不完,爸爸生病了所以没得去Cherating beach... 真是一点意义也没有。看来我得试一次在外地过年没得回家的感觉,才会重新学会体会与珍惜农历新年的意义...

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Without you...

Sorry for being so soppy lately, but there I was, taking my nice cold shower, while I suddenly thought of what I heard yesterday on Light FM: "Don't marry someone you have to live with; instead, marry someone you can't live without."

It striked me as unlikely, that how can two people be physically so far apart... yet still call themselves lovers... Doesn't this account as having someone that you can live without? But you're still in love with him/ her... while having a distance of a few hundred km between both of you?

That's just so weird... if you'd really loved your special other, wouldn't you give up everything, jobs, money, family... just to be by his/ her side? There's no bullshitting about how all of this is just temporary, you're looking ahead to a future together... what's important is, can you really NOT live without him/ her? All those lonely nights eating dinner on your ownself, those grousy phonecalls when you wish you could just reach out and hold him/ her close while whispering your heart out, and spending Valentine's alone... really, why wouldn't lovers rather be together?

That's still really a mystery to me... cos I can't figure out why two lovers would rather not live without. Someone, please enlighten me.

Anywayz, to those of you my dearest friends who're going to be with your loved ones this holiday, a Happy Chinese New Year and sincere blessings to you! :-)


Sei lor... everyday eat eat eat eat eat... getting fatter and fatter and fatter!!!

Initially I thought of cutting down on my food intake and doing more exercise in time for CNY, but ever since some workplace seniors came back from the U.S., I've been eating lots and lotsa American chocolates everyday! (Photo: Never-ending hole filled with chocolates~ )

Hersheys, Milkyways, Snickers, peanut butter bars, caramel-filled nougats, kisses, Gummie Bears, you name it they've got it!!! And not forgetting the sinful almond chocolate-covered brownies... mmm!

Wednesday, February 14, 2007


今天是情人节 - 可是在公司好像看不见有什么情人节的迹象... 除了我的 buddy 收到的漂亮太阳花束以外,好像也没看见别个了。

今年的情人节好像过得特别乏味,其实乏味也并非一件坏事,至少心情没象过去几年一样起伏不定。也许是工作的关系吧,放工后就那么几个小时罢了,也没什么难熬。今年也好像没什么想念什么人... 其实有一个,哈哈,但也是小小的想念罢了。也没什么特别想和谁人谁人一起度过,一切顺其自然吧,有情人陪伴在旁固然是好,但没情人,单身的情人节也可以像平常一样度过。可怜那些有情人却在远方的人,我想他们的心情应该更难过吧!

本来想放工后呆在家里随便煮个泡面吃再倒头大睡,用枕头把一切外面的情人节卿卿我我的气氛盖掉... 好彩 JW 主办了一个“捞生兼庆祝情人节大餐”,再加上受到一些不甘寂寞的人一直拉拢着去,最后,我也兴高采烈地去参加这场“盛宴”。至少有得笑餐饱... 哈哈哈... 真的。

吃饱饭后回到家里再为自己做个小小的“Valentine's Celebration”,选了 John Cusack 和 Kate Beckinsale 主演的浪漫喜剧 Serendipity 自己一个人看。(Serendipity — the act of finding something unexpected and useful while searching for something else entirely.)

希望明年的情人节,我会有一个特别的他陪我一起度过... 临睡前,我诚恳地许下这个愿望。

Justin Timberlake - My Love

J.T. is too hot!!!
Follow the link below to view Robyn Troup's "My Grammy Moment" with Justin Timberlake.

And his steamy MV "What Goes Around... Comes Around" with Scarlett Johannson!

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Answer Template for Singletons before CNY

Attention Singletons, this is a piece of advice just in time for Valentine's Day and CNY!

Today, my good friend Nicholas and I were chatting as usual and sharing our daily thoughts and quotes... when he suddenly popped a question:

Nicholas: Ooi... when u wanna paktoh ar?
Me: *Bedazzled... (thinking, why suddenly ask me this kind of question...)
Nicholas: OOI... (<-- he always so rude one...) actually I am asking POPULAR ques during CNY...
Me: Good question! Teach me how to give a good answer... (<-- result of too much spoon-feeding...)
Nicholas: Well... I kena a lot before CNY d loooo... @_@ You tell them, "I am actually looking for someone who is independent and already have career... somemore need him to care HOME 1... well... I want him to care u all (parents)... so... I just let YUAN FEN comes lo"
Me: Good one!!! I'm sure that after you give this speech, your audience (aunties uncles) will 鸦雀无声数秒,then 掌声如雷!
Nicholas: Remember... cannot say, no ppl want/ not in mood/ no time/ no money... won't work one!
Me: Thanks! I'll remember what to say when my aunties, uncles, cousins, dad, mom ask me this question!

Useful, isn't it? Hahaha...

Monday, February 12, 2007






Back to reality:

In the quest of searching for bugs in the flow, I fell asleep.

When I woke up, my head felt like it had been hit a thousand blows. I felt my throbbing head, which was giving me excruciating pain, but all I could see were my colleagues rushing to and fro at the corridor past my cubicle. Some were even dressed like the DiGi fellow in bright yellow. I saw my blue/gray xterm in front of me, those moody colours of dusk. I plodded back my head on the desk, I don't want to move anymore... how I wish I'd been tied up by the Lilliputians in Gulliver's Travels. Now that would be a good excuse to give my boss not to come to work.

Ow...!!! A big fat red ant bit me in the thigh... I must have carried it in my pocket all the way from home. I almost gasped out loud and jumped seven metres high... but luckily nobody noticed. That would be the worst of my embarassments. I creaked my head from side-to-side, pulled my laptop close, and continued again on my quest to finish debugging the cause of the many many thousand violations I see...

Source of inspiration: "Gulliver's Travels - Swift's satire of human pettiness and bestiality."

Trip to Cambodia + Thailand '06/07 - Day 3 (Continued...)

As continued from my previous post on Day 3 - Siem Reap, over lunch, our tour guide Kakadia told us the story about his family's traumatic experience under Khmer Rouge rule. It was during the years 1975 - 1979 that Cambodia was under the extremely cruel Khmer Rouge regime, Kakadia was not even born by then. He had 6 brothers and sisters, and during those times little children of ages 6 and above had to work in the paddy fields and construction sites as hard labour. His brother, then only 7 or 8 years old, was not exempt from being called to service and as he toiled underneath the hot sun with nothing more than thin rice soup to eat, he fell and was killed for being deemed lazy and too weak to work. His family was also torn apart as his mother was displaced to live in another province, and his sisters and brothers too. If you know the land of Cambodia is huge and in those days people had to travel on foot to get to another province. Luckily for him, as we Chinese call it 不幸中的大幸,after the KR rule Kakadia travelled to the province to fetch his mother back and was reunited in his own province. His sister too married a Thai and is currently working in Phuket airport, which I hope, is living a better lifestyle than those of her other countrymen. Kakadia, too, changed a few jobs and now, though working as a tuk-tuk driver, leads a happier and easier lifestyle compared to the hard labour he had to go through while he was younger.

Kakadia giving me a lovely blue apsara T-shirt as a gift. It's because he said I look like his sister who married to Thailand. I felt horrible as I had nothing to give in return, and the things that are sold in the marketplace are all souvenirs and of no use to locals...!

Small advertisement here (no commision collected! :D), those who will be travelling to Siem Reap can always ask for Kakadia (Driver no. 5120) at the Bou Savy guesthouse to be their tuk-tuk driver. A half-day ride to the Angkor Wat will cost USD6 (per tuk-tuk), while a full-day trip to Small Circuit will cost USD12. A full-day trip to Grand Circuit/ town will cost slightly higher (USD15) because the ride is longer for the Grand Circuit. Kakadia means crab in the Khmer tongue, and he speaks and understands English as well. Most importantly, his cheerful smile and friendly and polite persona will always brighten up your day along the way!

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Sunday, February 11, 2007





要是你拿着吉他对我轻弹 Now & forever
那我很肯定,你就可以 be my man...

Now and Forever...

Whenever I'm weary from the battles that rage in my head
You make sense of madness when my sanity hangs by a thread
I lose my way but still you seem to understand
Now and forever I will be your man

Sometimes I just hold you
Too caught up in me to see
I'm holding a fortune that heaven has given to me
I'll try to show you each and every way I can
Now and forever I will be your man

Now I can rest my worries and always be sure
That I won't be alone anymore
If I'd only known you were there all the time
All this time

Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand
Now and forever I will be your man
Now and forever I will be your man

Thursday, February 08, 2007


Yesterday someone said to me, "I think what you need is bleach."

Damn. And you think I haven't tried it yet?

From Wikipedia:
To bleach something is to remove or lighten its color; a "bleach" is a chemical that can produce these effects, often via oxidation. Household bleach, also known as chlorine bleach, sodium hypochlorite (NaClO), has a pH level of 11 and is used in the home for whitening clothes, removing stains, and disinfecting. This is because sodium hypochlorite yields chlorine radicals — oxidizing agents readily reacting with many substances. Chlorine is a respiratory irritant. It also attacks mucous membranes and burns the skin.

Now I know why my skin had rashes popping all over it.

I just wanna be fair!!


After reading Zhiwei's blog on the movie Babel, I too, wanted to blog down my take on it.

I'd actually been waiting for this movie for a couple of years, since I heard that Brad Pitt was involved in the production of this movie.

The Bible says in Genesis Chapter 11 "The Tower of Babel":
"Now the whole world had one language and a common speech. As men moved eastward, they found a plain in Shinar and settled there. They said to each other, 'Come, let's make bricks and bake them thoroughly.' They used brick instead of stone, and tar for mortar. Then they said, 'Come, let us build ourselves a city, with a tower that reaches to the heavens, so that we may make a name for ourselves and not be scattered over the face of the whole earth.' But the Lord came down to see the city and the tower that the men were building. The Lord said, 'If as one people speaking the same language they have begun to do this, then nothing they plan to do will be impossible for them. Come, let us go down and confuse their language so they will not understand each other.' So the Lord scattered them from there over all the earth, and they stopped building the city. That is why it was called Babel - because there the Lord confused the language of the whole world. From there the Lord scattered them over the face of the whole earth." (NIV)
So you see why the movie is called Babel - four different events involving people of different cultures and languages, occuring in different places at the same time, but somewhat amazingly interconnected to each other. Talk about six degrees of seperation. Well, I'm not going to blog about the biblical perspective, cos I wouldn't know how to answer your arguments; but rather about what this movie meant to me and how I connected with it.

Some of my colleagues felt the movie was mundane, something that happens all the time to ordinary people living around us. Julian said, "It's actually not bad, it's kinda hard to make a worst-case scenario movie." Now I felt that this movie was powerful, one of the best I'd watched in a long while since The Prestige... and I personally felt that it surpassed Crash... because of the wholly different perspectives from different cultures in other parts of the world. For 7 Oscar nominations, I would guess that many others felt the same too.

Some of the things in the movie I could really connect to... like Cate Blanchett throwing the ice out even though the Coke was served warm. While travelling to less-developed countries, you can't help but to question the hygiene of the food/drink that enters your stomach. But how about the locals that eat and drink there everyday? Guess how they survive? And the scene towards the end where Brad Pitt was indignant in giving money to the Moroccan tour guide to thank him for his help - reminded me of the Cambodian tour guide that bought me a T-shirt as a gift, just because I resembled his sister who stayed afar. Sometimes its the warmth of these locals that bring us deeply to shame - we often crown our expectations and comfortable lifestyles on others, expecting them to take the money because they are poor, and that by giving them money we would have repayed our debt to them - just because that would be exactly what we would have expected if we were to be on the receiving end. And the deaf-and-dumb Japanese girl that was so desolate and desperately in need of attention till the extent of needing to sleep with someone... thinking that through sex with another would be the ultimate way for her to connect with the world beyond her ears. How many times have we felt that innate need to bond intimately with someone? Especially in a world that's too busy spinning that no one has any time to stoop and notice your fears... until you turn reality into fantasy and breakdown and cry in front of a total stranger...

Another thing I'd like to ponder is the fact that really, rich people are always better off than the poor in this capitalistic world. After all the trauma that the Jones(Pitt's) family had gone through... they would still be helicoptered away safely by their protective U.S. government, back to the safenets of their cozy San Diego home and receive proper medical treatment, modern medicine, and professional counselling. But what about the people who died on the other end? Would anybody even give a dime to Abdullah and his sons? The police wouldn't even stop firing! And they were their countrymen! And how about the poor Mexican lady who just made a very bad decision to bring the Jones' children to Mexico... in exchange for years of savings in the Blessed Land. Same to the Japanese girl. Even though hearing-impaired and attention-deprived, she seems to live a more blessed lifestyle compared to other girls of the same age living in Mexico. And those Mexican girls would definately live a better lifestyle compared to their peers in Morocco.

Who's at fault? You can't really blame it on anyone... what if baby Sammy Jones hadn't died in his sleep? What if the Jones' had chosen another country for their vacation? What if the Japanese hunter had never given the gun away to the Moroccan guide? What if Abdullah had never spent 500 on the gun? What if... what if? Blame it all on capitalistism, that rich people grow even richer and poor people grow even poorer... and the gap widens. But don't forget how many people perished along the way in the history of capatalism... how America made it to this day to become the strongest and most powerful country in the world.

All-in-all, Babel is a movie that I would strongly recommend if you'd like to watch something 'deep' and thought-provoking... do spend some time to really get to know the world and its issues... cos in this global village that we live in nowadays, with news on the TV about Morocco and all... sadly, nobody really cares about anybody living on the other side of the world.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

在吉隆坡的那个周末 - Weekend in KL



我赶上 LRT,直奔 Bukit Jalil 站。一路上收到不少朋友捎来的关心慰问,让我感到很窝心。下了轻快铁,走出穿梭的人群,就看见家勤已经在等我。

好久没有一起窝在一个房间里谈个天南地北了... 记得以前在 Beta year 的时候,我们常常在宿舍这么做。 好高兴你已经找到你的理想男孩,但愿你能幸福快乐到永远...! :-)


第二天早上,我们和尼古拉斯一起吃早餐,因为他外婆生日,不能出席中午的聚会。约好在蒲种的“甜园”吃点心... 那里有一点像古装戏里面的客栈,楼上楼下四四方方的木桌,好像随时有人会在上面打架然后飞下去一样。 然后还可以说“小二,拿盘点心一壶茶来!” :P

我和尼古拉斯 - 要是再约你不出来,我就高歌《光良品冠-是你变了吗》!^_^

玮轩说不要和我拍照了... 因为在柬埔寨时拍了几百张... :P

过后在特士客载了国鑫,我们就到 Pudu 那里的椰子屋去聚会了。椰子屋真是个特别有情调的地方...绝对适合拍拖,聚会等... 因为除了情调,你还会有很多很多的时间谈天,因为我们的午餐陆陆续续从一点上到四点半... 不过真的,薄如翼,脆如饼的意大利比萨好好吃哦!

好久没看见你们了,除了怡保人... 思佳,英展,翔进... 从上次到现在,好像有一年没见你们了吧!

志伟,坤豪,和我。志伟,怎么了,回到 Cyberjaya 压力变大人变瘦了吗?
坤豪则好像没变多少... 哈哈,不知道是好是坏? 喂,Nicholas 说你好像 Doraemon in Pink... 还不赶快去揍他?!

口口声声说要等我的 Ah Pek 主席何英展... 人家现在可没水肿了喔~反因勤力跑步减了六公斤!*鼓掌...

我和热血青年 Ah Ken...
Me: "So, any young, hot-blooded politicians to introduce?"
Ying Chan: "Got! Exactly suit your taste... Ah Ken!"
Me: *faint...

我和翔进... 英展的六公斤好像转移到你身上去了... -_-!!!

我和韩留生国鑫... 哈哈哈~

~第六届的我们~ 我旁边有个空位留给宾妹庆德... ^_^


Me and my guys! And one girl... hahaha

聚会之后,我到好友思敏的家和嘉琪会合,然后到 Midvalley 去购物。也是半年没踏足 Midvalley 这个地方了... 这是我念大学时期最常 hangout 的购物中心,还记得以前我们一班同学还常常兴致勃勃地老远从 Cyberjaya 开车到 Midvalley 看半夜场 :P

最喜欢 Midvalley 的摆设了... 错过圣诞节的装潢,这一次,新年的我看见了。而且还刚巧碰到 Centre Court 有中国杂技团来表演... 看我的 Sony Ericsson K750i 2Mpixel 手机拍出来的照片... 效果还不错呢!



我人生中第一杯 Haagen-Dazs... 是和你们一起吃的!极力推荐的 Rum Raisin 和 Macadamia Nuts...

在 Body Shop 用 RM55 特价买了一支 Vitamin E 洗脸霜和保湿霜... 因为天天坐在冷气房内脸部皮肤开始脱皮了呢!擦上去好像能锁住水分的感觉... 闻它味道还香香的呢! ^_^


星期日约了碧丽吃早点,我们到 Sri Petaling 吃点心。谈着谈着突然感到我们都长大了... 离开了那青涩的白衣蓝裙年代,直迈事业女性的世界。我和思敏嘉琪说,还记得第一次遇见碧丽,是我在 Form 2 当巡察员在轮值时,她来叫我第二天跟其他 Leo members 在运动会过后倒垃圾... -_-''' 你知道吗,那已经是 10 年前的事了!

后来嘉琪说想买简单的晚装出席堂妹的婚宴,我们就陪她到 OUG Plaza 的 Parkson 买。三个人挤在一件试衣室在镜子前面照了照... 我想,这还是首次吧!买买下,我自己也买了一条裙子,哈哈!紫色的碎花裙,刚好大年初一可以穿!\:D/


Friday, February 02, 2007


I got myself a new phone - the Sony Ericsson K750i !

I chose this phone because... well, it's cheap -only RM680!- fits my budget... and has everything, and I mean, EVERYTHING! Camera, radio, mp3... and a 1GB Sony Memory Stick Duo for an additional RM100!

I guess... the happiest ones would be my friends and family... to hear my sweet voice crisp and clear again, without worrying about the auto-shutdown feature no more... hahaha~