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Thursday, November 30, 2006

我不愉快! :-(

最近我感到很不愉快,早上起来便一股闷气在心头,站在阳台上晒太阳也蒸发不去。转身把头塞进满溢的浴缸里,起来时却分不清楚脸上的是泪还是水。

听着漂亮的 Doris Day 唱着 “A Christmas Song”,我想起,啊,圣诞节要到了。

I know I shouldn't feel this way, that I should be thankful and grateful for the things that God has given me. But I can't help it... I can't help feeling this way.

最近公司人事变动,同事也可能必须离开公司... 太多事情不明白,长大了,到外面的世界看看,原来事实竟然可以这样残酷。不用说做久了没功都有劳,一句 "You're not competent enough" 就已成足够的理由一脚把你踢走。我对 Berry 慨叹,当你发生事情的时候,不用旨意身边的人能够帮得了你。朋友,又做得了什么?只有自己才可以帮到自己,东家不打,便打西家,这至深的道理,不是我们从小到大看港剧老公被炒,老婆所说的话吗?

可惜我身边的人不了解,对着最至亲的家人我也被指令只能报喜不报忧。没有家人的支持,我怀疑自己一旦遇上窘境,我能够如何撑得下去?不了解,不明白,心中太多问号可是却说不出口。我只是知道一些话重复了很多次,就算心里明知道是谎言气话,但总有一天我会相信那是真的。不肯定你是真的爱我吗?如果是,为什么要以这种方式来爱我?为什么不能控制一下你自己好让周围的人感到快乐安心?嘉琪说我应该告诉你,我被伤害的感受,可是对着你的怒吼,我只好选择忍吞,接受。

家家有本难念的经,也许今天面临事业不顺利的不是我,但我也有自己的烦恼,请你明白。但是,很开心身边有一群支持我的好朋友,在我不快乐的时候与我感同身受,听我诉苦,对我劝解,和我说笑,请我吃饭... 真的,有你们,我相信任何一切我都可以安然渡过。:)

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

人文生活

今天在公司食堂里获赠一张免费书签,为配合大将书行在 Queensbay Mall 内的 Borders 书店开张大吉。

纯白色的书签上印着一座由书籍叠成的灰色双峰塔,左边写着“吉隆坡有一个角落 与中文世界无时差”两行字。

我感觉上顿时回到那下着滂沦大雨的星期六下午,我在 PJ The Curve 的 Borders 里等待你的出现。白净亮丽的书店里人们凝注着手中的书,仿佛时间在这里停止,外面的雷声雨滴全被隔在那落地玻璃窗外,透不进来。

我走过去最靠近的英文分类壁橱,从书架上取下 George Orwell 的 《1984》,在等你的空挡,轻轻地翻阅着。纸片间偶尔夹着隔壁 Starbucks 浓郁的咖啡香,我想,好希望你陪我在那火红色的沙发上好好地看完一本书。我们之间隔着一壶热咖啡,你谈论着你喜欢的文学,我静静地听,看你眉飞色舞地在比手画脚。好喜欢望着你鼻梁上的那副黑框眼镜,你架上它十足像个可爱的大学生,认真的模样却让你成熟不减。我不禁掉入你深邃的眼神。

门铃响起,有人进来了,可是还不是你。我把书放回书架上,转身下电动扶梯,到 Jazz Selection 区取了一片 Diana Krall 的 CD, 戴上重重的 Sony 耳机,细心地感受。Diana Krall 性感的喉音在耳边旋绕,“The look of love is in your eyes The look your smile can't disguise...” 我又陶醉在想你的幻想里面。

听完一片又一片的 CD ,我抬起头,看落地窗外的天空。外边的大雨已经停止,取而代之的是低垂的夜幕,还有对面 Ikea 亮丽的圣诞灯装饰。我从卡其色的背包拿出电话,搜寻你打给我的踪迹。看起来电话并没有响过。在这个角落里,我与你竟然有了时差。你忘了我们的约定吗?没关系,我今天一个人在 Borders 里,在我的幻想里快乐的度过。

我把电话放回背包,甩了甩头发,走出电动门口。不等你了,过了今天,我就离开吉隆坡,到槟城去。我们,会在槟城的 Borders 再见面吗?

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Oasis "Let there be Love"


Who kicked a hole in the sky so the heavens would cry over me?
Who stole the soul from the sun in a world come undone at the seams?
Let there be love - Let there be love
I hope the weather is calm as you sail up your heavenly stream
Suspended clear in the sky are the words that we sing in our dreams
Let there be love - Let there be love - Let there be love - Let there be love
Come on baby blue
Shake up your tired eyes
The world is waiting for you
May all your dreaming fill the empty sky
But if it makes you happy
Keep on clapping
Just remember I'll be by your side
And if you don't let go, it's gonna pass you by

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Just wanna share a song here by one of my favourite bands. God said in Genesis, "Let there be Light", while Oasis says, "Let there be Love"!

We can't live without Light or Love... so before darkness fills your soul, let there be love :)

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

丢掉

昨晚,我终于把我的青豆丢掉了。放了好几个月,因为当时过了一个月之后就不敢吃了,却又舍不得丢掉。房友们常常问我怎么还不丢?我说,要等到青豆发芽长成大树之后再丢。一过就过了好几个月,昨晚心血来潮,一把抓起来扔进垃圾桶里。

恰巧和房友谈起周围朋友感情变更的问题,我心里想,暂且不说几个月的爱情,好几年的感情,是不是也可以在心血来潮时一把扔进垃圾桶里?

大学时期感情很要好的KZ情侣,白天上讲堂也在一起,午后一起步行回同一所公寓,晚上到图书馆温习也要一起坐在一个角落,人家不知道还以为他们是双胞胎呢。男孩Z为人很不错,绝对是个老实可靠的男友,女孩K看起来也挺乖巧的。才步入社会工作,不知道是女孩离开日夜相伴的男友太远了(其实男孩Z也只不过住北海对岸),还是和隔壁cubicle的男孩朝夕相对对出感情来,选择放弃三年的感情,投入他人的怀抱中。房友对此深深感到惋惜,难道三年的感情比不上三个月的新鲜感吗?昨晚我亲眼目睹女孩K和新男友一面拍拖一面吃炸鸡后,终于明白,不是任何一方的错,只是女孩需要的不是一个默默相伴的男生,而是一个极力追求她(aggresive),懂得表达爱意(expressive)的男生,让她重新明白自己魅力所在,每一分每一刻深深感到被爱。

另外一对DL情侣,也是拍拖三年,当初还是女孩D主动出击,让男孩L成为她的男朋友。女孩自小呼风唤雨,大大的眼睛让周围男生都拜倒其石榴裙下。所以当公主相中公子,L公子怎么抵挡得住?于是成了羡煞旁人的一对金童玉女。公子总不能一生都靠家财,于是念完书之后出来社会打拼,留下公主独守象牙塔。后来公主遇上比L公子条件还要好的X公子,也断然结束长达三年的爱情,随X公子去。房友对此事更是感触,因为她希望童话故事不要结束,同时两位公子都是她的好朋友。但是我问她,难道公主就没有权利选择条件和她更匹配的王子吗?她有错吗?错在哪里,是错在难分难舍的情况下一脚踏两船,还是选择放弃公子那熟悉的背影?

以前的我,在朋友当中看到这样的爱情难题,总会为朋友感到不值,惋惜,甚至是愤怒。都习惯在一起这么久了,为什么要分手?怪离去的那方喜新厌旧,怪他狠心,还是怪他眼睛长在屁股上?长大之后却渐渐发现,爱情原来就是主观题,没有正确的答案,也没有人可以告诉你解决方案。套用一句西洋人的说法:“All is fair in love and war”,爱情要来就来,要去就去,管你感情长达三年三个月什么的,没有一方可以怪,只能怪天不时地不利人不和。

感情就像一包青豆,很可能你在买下来之前就知道自己喜不喜欢吃了。因为是自己买的,所以吃了一颗之后就算不喜欢,也不想这么快丢掉,因为有哪一天自己可能会喜欢上那味道。过了保鲜期限,就变得不舍得,心里想要放在垃圾桶里,就不如放在冰箱上饨着。再过一会儿,人家催了,嘿,你的青豆到底还要不要,不要就丢掉。你就告诉人家,不要,我要等它发芽长成树;心里却明明知道,炒熟了的青豆哪里可能还会发芽成树。直到有一天,自己买了一包Mr. Potato薯片,转过头,就很顺手地把青豆丢进垃圾桶里了。

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Biggest Heist Ever in Malaysia - 12.7mil USD

Adapted from TheStar - A Very Well-Planned Job:

"With the workers under guard, the rest of the robbers set to work on the microchips. In just an hour, they piled 585 cartons and 18 pallets of microchips and motherboards manufactured by a multi-national company in Bayan Lepas into the containers.

The loot estimated to be worth US$12.7mil (RM46.99mil) was said to be the country’s biggest ever heist. And arguably the most audacious, too.

Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi, who was in Putrajaya, was livid when informed of the robbery. The Prime Minister was very angry over the lack of security. "

The impact:

Adapted from TheStar - Chips could be abroad by now

Pikom chairman, Lee Boon Kok, said the chips, especially the processors, were highly valued and could be transferred across the border fairly quickly.

Lee added that there was a large syndicate that distributed the stolen processors, which the computer industry regarded as a prized commodity. There was also a market for such items as they allowed computer makers to assemble computers at a lower cost.

Lee said although the chips were easily traceable through their serial numbers, the task was difficult as retailers did not report such incidents.

He added that the stolen chips would go through a distribution network where retailers could get them at 10% to 20% less than the market price.

“This actually cripples the IT industry,” he said, adding that manufacturers would find it difficult to compete with the sale of much cheaper machines.

Cases of hijacking of chips could also affect foreign direct investment, he noted.

“Foreign investors will be discouraged by the lack of basic security.”

Lee added that such incidents would also make it difficult for computer manufacturers to insure their goods.

“If this continues, computer manufacturing will be regarded as a high risk business,” he said.

I can't help but ponder, what will become of us? And by us, I mean:
1. My company - my site, will HQ continue to trust in us? Will further actions be taken? How will this affect the employees?
2. My country - our industry, has our credibility dropped to a new low in the eyes of foreign investors? What will become of MAS/ MASkargo? What will become of Malaysia, with our lack of risk-awareness...

Friday, November 17, 2006

Intel Treasure Hunt '06

Many of my friends have been asking me "How's the treasure hunt??" since most of them have never taken part in one before... So, definately I feel obligated to blog about it, especially to the kind souls who were my offline source that day.

My very First Car Hunt :D

Woke up at 6 something to get to Shinca before 7.15am (parking... yesss... I'm still parking!!!) The CarHunt girls all in Intel Involved Blue T-shirts... From left, Jinwen, Lansin, Soekjunn, Piklay, Kerli, Sheauyiing and me... There were altogether 90 cars and 20 prizes (hampers) to be won.
And this, Team KR4 - "Kulim Raiders 4"! Consisting of Soekjunn, me, Chunwai (navigator & Sudoku expert) and Sujea (driver) with his ride!

We flagged off at 8am, and had to reach Intel Kulim site before 1pm max. Could have been earlier if we hadn't got lost at Kulim Hi-tech Park, we reached the final destination at 12.45pm. Along the sunny sweaty way, we had to solve numerous questions by looking hard at the shops' signboards to guess the answer. My friend claims he gets these "Treasure Hunt symptoms" afterwards... always thinking of something fishy when he sees any signboards @_@

One of the things I realised was that in a treasure hunt, the questions are never as direct as you think. It's the words you have to play with in order to get the answer. Shall list down some sample Q&A later, just to give y'all a glimpse... :)

And no, despite our effortless teamwork and brilliance and us being one of the earliest returners, we didn't win a prize... :P Nevermind ppl, now we've got experience, we'll bag it next time! :D

Ending with a group pic... the 4 cars who joined the Intel Malaysia Charity Treasure Hunt '06

My Inadequacies~

God... I'm feeling so inadequate now... feel like an bloody idiot after the interview. No chance there... but felt better after talking to Sujea... Darn, I guess I'll have to cheer up like everybody tells me to... treat this interview as an E.X.P.E.R.I.E.N.C.E! At least I know now where my knowledge sits and what tricky questions are to be asked in the interviews... *solemn face*

I know my basics are not good.
I know I'm slow in picking up.
I know what I know is insufficient...

And if I wanna cont' staying here, there's still so much to learn, to discover! Especially TIMING, the story behind the stories... what I'm doing and how it can benefit the project... O.K. I get the picture... and I shall pick up from here.

Just like what my manager tells me... you can't choose your employability. The only way to guarantee your value is to keep learning and learning!

*Whispers "GAMBATEH" to myself! And thanks for your support, friends :)

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

All American Rejects - It Ends Tonight

Cool song after Move Along!!!



Your subtleties They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all
And all the wants And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all

The walls start breathing My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone
A weight is lifted On this evening
I give the final blow

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight
It ends tonight

A falling star Least I fall alone
I can't explain what you can't explain
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone
A weight is lifted On this evening
I give the final blow

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight
It ends tonight
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight
It ends tonight

*Bridge
Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

~手表物语~

摸着我刚买的 EYKI 钢表上会跑动的小心型,我突然感触,我这一生中拥有的手表不多吧...

我想起我曾经也拥有类似的钢表,表面是个蓝色的心,是爸爸妈妈在我念大学预科班买给我的。当时是妈妈托大姨拿给我的... 在车上,大姨转过头来对我说:“你看你爸妈多爱你,选了个心型手表送给你。那你就别怪他们啦...”

还记得,那时候刚分了手,心情沮丧到极点,却怪爸妈不关心我,还常常逼我半工半读呢... 没想到其实是自己不曾告诉他们女儿已经长大了,拍拖了,下场还是分手... 没有告诉他们,他们又哪里懂我伤心呢? 逼我打工也是好事,不然在大学时就不会有那么多钱花啦~ 哈哈 ^_^

所以每当看见心型手表的时候,就会想起这一段好笑的往事,这一段小女孩老是爱发爸妈脾气的傻事...

也顺便一记我第一支(手表的量词是什么呢?)手表也是爸妈送给我的,那是我在小学三年级时考到全级(是全级哦,不是全班!^_^)第一名的礼物。那时候爸爸妈妈很穷,小小的我却已经很懂事... 他们带我到 The Store 旁边的钟表店选手表时,我还选了全店最便宜的黑色胶表 (三十令吉)。我小个的 taste 就比较成熟了,选的表面不是 Kiropee 青蛙或 Mickey 之类的,而是白色表面上面刻有罗马数字的那一种。是罗马数字哦,不是阿拉伯数字!真是给我小的时候的自己昏倒~

结果那一支手表给我一戴就戴到 Form 5,证明了Q&Q 手表的确很有料,也证明了,其实我是很长情的唷~~ ^_^

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Many types of pain...

It's been so long since I've blogged or written anything real. Tried to read an article in Times that TVC posted me but my eyes were so tired and painful that I just couldn't focus on the words.

I wonder, is it worth it to get myself blind before I reach the age of 25? Everyday, just staring at those tiny fonts on bright colourful backgrounds. Now I know why all the Dilbert geeks wear thick glasses all the time. It's to protect their eyes. Duh. Furthermore, geeks shouldn't feel the need to wear contact lenses since no one really bothers to look at them anyway. So it's time for me put on my ugly glasses again. @_@

I even sprained my right wrist while doing some "camel stance" in yoga class yesterday. So it's really a miracle I'm even typing this down. Not mentioning my ass hurts like hell I wince just sitting down or everytime my car crosses over a bumppp (OW!!!) And suddenly it seems clear to me how come the doctor gave me a sinister look when I told her I have a pain in the ass. Oh God. Don't even go there.

And did I mention the countless times somebody stared at my face this week and gasped "Oh, how perfectly symmetrical your pimples are!" ... Better get better soon before Suet Sun's wedding... -_-'''

Lastly, I hope the spots on my body will go away so that I can become a real tanned bikini girl :)

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Bikini from Phuket!


Sujea bought me a bikini from Phuket today. It's so sweet of him to have thought of it while he was on his vacation... hahaha ^_^

Will I wear it?

Truthfully, I can barely fit into it! (I wonder how those Europeans wear it/ not... ?) There, he must feel his bahts going down the drain... :P

Hahaha... but I guess I could wear it under a top or something while basking under the sun at Cherating (while NOT moving!!!) Hopefully I'll get some pictures uploaded then... worth the wait? ;)