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Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Beyonce "Irreplaceable"

To the left
To the left
Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet that's my stuff - Yes
If I bought it nigga please don't touch

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact he'll be here in a minute - baby

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable

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I *heart* this song! Go, Beyonce! ^_^

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Re: Bad news

I suddenly felt down after reading the email that Kwong Hong sent me. Now, whether Intel converts me or not is just a secondary question compared to this matter. The mounting tension in me beat like a second heart as it dawned on me that I could do nothing but to face the predicament that I had laid myself upon five years ago.

I know that it would do me no good to reflect on the past and thinking would it be better if I had done such and such…

Now, I can’t help but to wonder, what would wise men do in such a situation like this. Since nothing is confirmed yet… and will still be so, at least months from now… should I lay aside the matter and just focus on things at present, or should I start pre-planning my way ahead for what might happen and what might not? Or should I just mail it in and hope for the best?

Oh… I am at a crossroads, but the good thing is, I have my friends with me, and I know I am not alone.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

天空灰得像哭过...

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后并没有更自由
酸酸的空气 守住我们的距离
一幕醉心的结局 像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黄的日记 找到了回忆
那笑容是傻气

你我的过去 被深深真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情 存心的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错 只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给的承诺 全被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错 只是放手比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里带去

--周杰伦《退后》

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喜欢一切与天空有关的歌,从 The Beatles 《Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds》,王菲《天空》,蔡依林《天空》,陈冠希与Stephy 《Blue Skies》,周杰伦《晴天》,直到这首周杰伦的《退后》。

天空让我想起你,变化多端的你,飘浮不定的你,脸一阵晴一阵黑的你。想想下,我也真像你... 像天气一样抓摸不清的你。我一直不懂得你心里到底想什么,心里在思念谁,但看见你眼中泛过一丝不定,我想,应该不是我吧...?

最近的天空也真的灰得像哭过,啊不,应该是说灰得像生病咳嗽一样,都是灰得干躁躁的。真希望下一场大雨,把一切灰灰的都洗掉,把我记忆中的你,也洗掉...

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Reading "Norwegian Wood"

On my sick day, I finished reading Norwegian Wood. I finished it with such gusto... I couldn't believe myself when I had done with it. My friends told me you can't find time to read after you come back exhausted from work. I really thought so... it'd been such a long while since I swallowed a book full, I thought I'd lost interest in reading ever since I started working.

Mom asked me, what's so great about that Japanese author? Well, do you know Murakami took the world by storm? I bet there's not a single teenager who doesn't know Murakami in Japan.

I love his prose, his clean refreshing simplistic style, not mundanely over-describing faces, scenery and expressions like what John Banville did in his book "The Sea". Hauntingly beautiful my foot. No, in Norwegian Wood, Murakami catches the beautiful expressions of solemn nature, the vivid distraughtness of young, insecure love and lays it down in heartfelt, easy tones.
Here's one of the paragraphs I like the most. Let me show to you Murakami's world.

"Eighteen years have gone by, and still I can bring back every detail of that day in the meadow. Washed clean of summer's dust by days of gentle rain, the mountains wore a deep, brilliant green. The October breeze set white fronds of head-high grasses swaying. One long streak of cloud hung pasted across a dome of frozen blue. It almost hurt to look at that far-off sky. A puff of wind swept across the meadow and through her hair before it slipped into the woods to rustle branches and send back snatches of distant barking - a hazy sound that seemed to reach us from the doorway to another world."

See his precise choice of words? A "deep, brilliant green" are the mountains afar... I'd never thought of describing the colour of mountains I so usually see that way. And that horizontal cloud, "pasted across a dome of frozen blue", it's as though you are able to picture the character's memory frozen in the past, with white balls of cotton glued onto blue cardboards like a child's school art project. And his memory, it hurts Watanabe to even think of those days... "it almost hurt to look at that far-off sky".
Lovely.

I'd read many novels about psychotic young girls, like in Prozac Nation and The Bell Jar... but this is the first time I'm seeing it from a non-Western, Japanese perspective. Somehow the settings and their actions (Naoko, Watanabe and Midori) are still Western (Watanabe listens to The Beatles and reads The Great Gatsby), but it's that deep thought, those silent emotions, and their passive actions, that are so clearly Japanese by nature.

I'd never heard the song Norwegian Wood by the Beatles before, cos Dad never mentioned this song to me... I guess it wasn't main-stream then? I thought the lyrics would be something like the book, or the paragraph I'd put down above... lyrics about the clear, azure sky or simple tall woods with rabbits leaping around in the grass... so I went online and checked it to see if I was correct from where Murakami got his inspiration. But to my surprise, it was actually something like this.

"I once had a girl, or should I say, she once had me...
She showed me her room, isn't it good, norwegian wood?
She asked me to stay and she told me to sit anywhere,
So I looked around and I noticed there wasn't a chair.

I sat on a rug, biding my time, drinking her wine.
We talked until two and then she said, "It's time for bed"
She told me she worked in the morning and started to laugh.
I told her I didn't and crawled off to sleep in the bath

And when I awoke, I was alone, this bird had flown
So I lit a fire, isn't it good, norwegian wood."

I guess Murakami got his inspiration from the first line. The notions of the girl, dangerously inviting yet coyly distancing herself while waiting for the guy to take action. And as he took his time, unsure of what to do, she had already left him for good.
Isn't it good, Norwegian Wood.

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

一个人的大病天 My Lonely Sick Day

虽然昨晚早睡,但今天早上起来便觉得不对劲了。平时闪烁的眼睛黯淡无色,周围还盖上了一层灰的。脸部泛红,但不是因为想起了某人... 红是整脸的,其他人从我咖啡色的肌肤瞧不出,但我自己看见了...

毅然提起深绿色背包踏出家门,心想家里没有网络,呆一整天在家也没啥意思的,不如来公司贡献点绵力... 也许到了中午病情会好转些吧...

可现在坐在我小小的格子里,因为寒冷而套上我的黑色毛衣之后,却感到内部的热(不是热情)向外慢慢地散发。我望上看,仿佛看见一缕缕轻烟从头顶冒出... 天啊,我正在发热... 热在自己的小格里,但全世界都不知道,因为热的只是在我的心里... 透出来后便蒸发掉,谁也看不见...

决然说再见,早上那一丁点毅力现在已经销然无存。我戴上我的超大墨镜对着车镜内的自己酷酷地笑了一下,甩掉那头晕目眩的感觉,在烈日当空的中午开车回家... 因为我相信在没有人照顾的大病天我依然会很好...

Monday, October 09, 2006

Happy Mooncake Festival!


It all started when our SD teambuilding event was cancelled. So... some of the girls decided to come up with a BBQ party to celebrate the Midautumn Festival.

We had much to eat... sandwiches, deliciously marinated chicken wings, corn, sausages, meatballs, prawns, fish, stingray, otak-otak, chilli ladies fingers... until our stomachs were stuffed!

Here I am with some of my colleagues... hey, if you look at the original photo album you'll see I have some sort of food in my hand in EVERY single pic!

Red red lanterns hung up in the sky 大红灯笼高高挂... somehow this pic reminds me of the days in MMU where we wrote wishes and flew 孔明灯 at dusk in the football field... too bad we didn't take any photos then... now all left are memories in my head...


Last but not least, my department team! *Yes I know, big, isn't it? :)

Ever since...

Ever since I knew you
My Mondays are no longer blue...

Thursday, October 05, 2006

The Devil Wears Prada

Since my housemates and I never had a Girls' Night Out before, we decided to strut into the cinema to watch The Devil Wears Prada together.

Ever since I read the book by Lauren Weisberger a few years back, I was full of anticipation for the movie and when I got to know that Meryl Streep was playing the role of Miranda Priestly, I couldn't be more eager to throw off my black high pumps and rush off to the movie. And truthfully, it was G.R.E.A.T!

Hollywood should do more adaptations like this... I like a fast-paced movieline that cuts to the chase, is not without emotion, retains all the juicy, hilarious lines and casts fabulous actors such as Meryl Streep. And did you know why this movie is truly great? Coz it was directed by David Frankel of Sex & The City fame. Like I read from somewhere, this is a man who knows his Jimmy Choos from his Manolo Blahniks (Carrie, anyone?) He certainly knows how to balance fashion and emotion... not your ordinary chick flick, satisfyingly!

I declare Anne Hathaway (Princess Diaries/ Brokeback Mountain) to be the next Julia Roberts. She always portrays this ugly duckling who grows into a swan. And this movie, I dunno, aims to be Pretty Woman on Fifth Avenue? Or Breakfast at Gucci's?

And Meryl Streep, oh Meryl! Elegant, haughty and with that commanding look despite her abundant tuff of white hair, I could not divert my eyes off her each time she appeared on-screen, "Get me Demarchelier!" Her role, reprising that of Miranda Priestly, is widely said to mirror the editor-in-chief of Vogue magazine, Anna Wintour.

One thing that might be unclear to viewers who did not read the book (nor carefully), is to why the book/movie is named The Devil Wears Prada, since the only hint of a Prada is the white fluffy bag imprinted with the brand name carried by Miranda as she storms into the building. And one more thing they didn't explicitly mention in the movie was the particular affection of Miranda towards Hermes scarves, hence the upward scatter of colourful scarves into the air while First Assistant Emily was hit by a car.

One role I thought was miscast was the role of Nigel. I had expected someone who gave more attention to the "sad little girl", her mentor, beacon of light in fashion noir. Someone as supportive as err... I dunno... Whoopi Goldberg in Ghost?

My favourite scene in the whole movie was Paris... with the city lights and the restaurant playing "French Kiss" and Andy twirling on a pole in the garden only to be caught by the charming Christian Thompson (Simon Baker) who kisses her again and again and again... so Sex & The City! Love it! I don't blame Andy for falling for Christian... it's that deadly intelligence + looks that's so tempting... And did you know Simon Baker was voted among People Magazine's "50 Most Beautiful People" (2002)?

I especially like this dress! And oh, can I wear leather jackets and carry Marc Jacob satchels and fashionable pumps or calf-level black boots to work starting from tomorrow? But I'm scared my colleagues would call me crazy...

You people who declare yourselves to be fashionistas, always buy CLEO or visit Loreal counters should drop all your stuff, and go to the cinemas, now!

That's all >:)

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

My First Karate Lesson

Yesterday was my first karate lesson. Thanks to Yee Yong who dragged me there knowing that my badminton session was cancelled... I had a delightful karate lesson...... because of the handsome sensei! Hahaha... ^_^

If I thought my taekwondo instructor was cute last time, well, this one must be 10 times cuter! He's like this grown-up version of the Karate Kid himself, perfect hair, perfect smile, perfect posture, perfect stance, and looks totally hot in his karate uniform!

And best of all, he works at Level 2 too! So I can see him everyday~~~ *dreamy look on my face*

Haha... felt a bit embarassed cos I kinda forgot all my Taekwondo moves, which is kinda similar to Karate, how to aim straight for front side kick, lost my balance plus lost my ability to shout "HEI!" instead of a meek little squeek!

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And he was expecting that I'd retain my martial arts skills... Sigh... why had my karate instructor had to be so 100% perfect? I just can't concentrate on my enemy~~~

Monday, October 02, 2006

"Janice - Chocolate Ice"

最近喜欢上一首歌 “Chocolate Ice”,歌手是 Janice 卫兰,黎明的师妹。第一次听见这首歌,是在一个下着浑然大雨的夜晚。那一晚,我们从香港抵达机场,爸爸驱车从吉隆坡回怡保。那时候已经夜半三点钟了,我们停在大道休息站小睡了一阵子。扭开收音机,电台悠悠传来了这首歌,DJ说,Janice 擅长唱英文歌。一听之下,立刻喜欢了这首甜滋滋的 “Chocolate Ice”。

Bring me to the sea of sugar and spice
Reminiscing through some chocolate ice
Tick tock take time to be gentle and kind
You sweat cos you’re running run all day in my mind

Fly to the moon and the sun
And let’s go have some fun
Come on take my hand
And free your soul again

Fly to the moon and the sun
And let’s go have some fun
It’s one, two, three
My love is plain to see
What I’d do for you baby
You’d do for me

Let me serenade your soul
When you’re feeling down and low
Let the music come alive
Let tenderness arrive

Let me serenade your soul
When you’re feeling down and low
Boy you make me feel so high
Together we can fly

今天,我的 YM status 放着 “Bring me to the sea of sugar and spice, reminiscing through some chocolate ice”。 Zul 回应我说,做不到,在这缺乏白糖的时候,你的 status 太奢侈了。Haha... 马来同胞们在 Hari Raya 时要吃糕点,恐怕缺乏白糖,是他们这时候最担心的一件事了~